I am the worst daughter ever! My mom's birthday was Monday the 28th of March and I just couldn't get it together and get her a gift on time. I struggle every year with what to get my mom. To me my mom has everything and I am sure the stuff she wants I just can't afford... In reality whatever I get her would never be enough to show my appreciation.
Why am I writing this?
Anyone that knows me. knows I am not an affectionate person. I am very guarded and reserved. It is hard for me to say I love you unless it is with my kids. I am sure my mom feels the brunt of this because I can only recall a few times of me saying "I love you" to her. So, this is my public display and way for me to say "I love you, Mom!"
When I was little my mom worked her behind off to take care of us. Even if it meant not really being there. She worked nights at the telephone company, went to school, and was a substitute teacher. I never once heard my mom complain. I never once heard her say anything negative. Every time I complain or whine about how tired I am and how much I have to do I think how in the heck did she do it without one complaint?
In a Nutshell
My mom is just an easy going, smart, and goofy person. She is witty and can have a comeback in an instant. A people person who everyone loves to be around. There were so many times I know I have let her down and disappointed her and it always killed me inside when I did. But she never ever told me when I did. Not that she had to, her face is very easy to read. She just dealt with it. I don't know how. Maybe lots of alcohol? Haha. Yes. I think lots of alcohol helped ease her anger or sadness. Whatever she did, she never rubbed it in and made me feel worse. She just forgave and moved on. Something I will always admire. Especially when I lose it and yell and my children! Again, how in the heck did she do it?
The Worst Day Ever
One of those disappoints happened when I was 22. I found out I was pregnant. I was in college with no money. I wasn't married. Just pregnant. Although he is my husband now and we have 3 beautiful boys, at that time it didn't seem like a happy ever after situation. I cried and cried and cried terrified to tell my mom. I couldn't even tell her! I had to Instant Message her on AOL!! Remember those days? I just couldn't bare to hear her disappointment. I typed the words, " I have something to tell you." She responded, " What?" I typed, " I am pregnant." She responded, "I knew it." Then silence. She asked a few questions but never ever yelled at me or put shame on me. She just helped me make a plan, took me shopping for maternity clothes, visited me regularly driving 2 hours away, helped me when the baby was born, and drove every Sunday to visit me and her grandson. If that isn't unconditional love, then I do not know what is.
Being a Yaya
My mother is a nut! She must have changed the name she wanted her grandchild to call her 5 million times! She was dead set on MeeMaw until Javion started babbling Yayayayaya. And then she says, "That's it! I am Yaya. He said my name first!." She would sneak my baby chocolate and soda. OMG! I was so mad! I still blame Yaya for my son's bad teeth! Haha. I think it is her silent way of payback for all the stress I caused her. Haha She spoils my kids rotten and they just love her to death. It is only March and the countdown till the summer Yaya visit has already begun. They miss you, Yaya!
I wrote all this to say, you are the world's best mom. I know I never say it, but I have always appreciated everything you have done, do, and will do. You are an awesome Grandma..oops.. I mean Yaya. No one could ever do what you do. We all love you so much and no words could express how much we love you. I hope you had a Happy Birthday and can't wait till our getaway!